ok here's the thing

I was as you all now a very active member of the forum until last years tragic events and I have not had the heart to make the daily trudge in here, although I do sometimes come in and have a look around but very rarely post.
If your happy with admin as it is at present then I am happy to continue but really I don't have to do much because you are so very good *cough splutter* other than swipe out the odd interloper but if any of you would like me to step down I would fully understand and have someone in Admin who has not time but more commitment to put into the forum.
I don't want to bring everyone down but I have not been coping very well at all recently emotionally and am missing Jayne more each day, it's crap when people say it gets easier because for me anyway it just isn't and although I am forcing myself, yes ladies you heard it here first me has to force herself to turn on the computer, she who was never off it but I guess on the new years resolution post I said the only thing I want is to stay off the smokes I also want to feel a bit more like me again. I know you have all been here for me and I haven't been the greatest at keeping up with everyone's lifes and what's going on but you all are very special ladies, ok I am babbling now oh and don't let my ramblings influence your decision on the above lol

Of course we still want you as Administrator. When I have had a problem you are on here like a shot - carry on Mrs. We all understand your circumstances and are waiting for the day when you feel you want to come and talk to us all again but no-one can understand how you feel after such a loss. It is still early days Jan

Of course you must stay - we need you.

We're here for you when you are ready to chat but we understand its not time yet. It's still early days and you never totally get over your loss though coping with it becomes easier eventually.

Well done for keeping off the smokes. Hope 2011 will be a happier year for you.

Yes of course we want you to stay , we miss ya . Hope it gets better for you soon and ((((((big hugs))))))

I am quiet happy Jan with you there at the helm, you take care of yourself sending you warm hugs love to you . Janetxxx

Of course we want you to stay- think the others have said it all.

Jan, there is no way we want you to go hun......

We look forward to the days you do post but totally understand when you cannot xx

Sending you a big comforting hug my love xxx